I wake up and look at my phone no text. Put phone on loud. Go back to sleep. Sleep. Sleep. Phone goes off every now and then but still no text from you.
It's been days and days and days of this. I never really thought how much it takes to anticipate a text message. It drains me. Iv'e been on break for about 3 weeks and I slept threw all those days, okay I lied I didn't sleep I spent them lounging around hoping you would come around. It would be like a "welcome back". I have a necklace that sits on my table next to my bed as I watch it dangle with your class ring. I'm not sure what that means. I watch it and reminisce of the times I smiled. The littlest things can make me think of you. You probably think all I have are bad memories because of how much of a douche I was towards you, but thats not true at all. I love your smile. I can't help it. I still get butterflies when I see you or hear your voice. I don't understand.
If things don't work out I want a girl with everything that reminds me of you so it's like you never left.
Hmmmm......... i breathe in and out constantly to control my emotions. How are those? Oh there great just all over the place. I'm really close to getting them under control. I don't know why I get so angry when I shouldn't and I don't know how to say things I shouldn't worry about it.
I know your occupied but i'm sorry for ruining your life. Mine is horrible. :/
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